Sunday, August 14, 2011
random thoughts of a single mama
being a single mama came to me as the biggest shocker so far in my life. it has exhausted me to the near end . . . or so i feel. it has reminded me of friends . . . in the masses. thank you Lord. it has challenged me spiritually, emotionally, parentally (is that a word? it is now!) it has left me without my best friend. it has caused me to feel cheated on life. on the other hand, it has strengthened my relationship with God ~ WHEN i allow Him. it causes me to question lots. it has shown me how strong & independent i can be if/when necessary. it has taught me about unconditional love for *my man* and our boys. it has caused me to really seek joy & experience it. it has helped me to slow down & enjoy the memory making time and other days it has made me want to speed up through this yucky season. it has allowed me to see & bask in God's provision & beauty. it has caused me to experience how un-fun it is to cook healthy meals for my family . . . way more enjoyable to look for "kids eat free" restaurants. (this is not healthy = weight gain) it has taught me so much about forgiveness, healing, & being content right where i am. it has made the boys' arguments seem way worse than they really may be. life brings A LOT of unexpected . . . good & bad. despite the way it may end, i will not regret the fight i put up to save our marriage.
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